I saw the advertisement for my dream job last week. I applied for the post a couple of times before but the furthest I went was till to round three then KO-ed. Up to now, I still have no idea where I went wrong or what was the deciding factor that got me booted out.

I'm 25 this year, not young anymore.
Was it my complexion? Or was it because I juz don't have the look that they are looking for?

They are having another round of recruitment this coming Saturday... But I won't be going coz the disappointment of not being selected is juz too much for me to handle. :(

Our behavior is define by the different roles that we play, different environment we are in and different responsibilities that we must shoulder.

Role as a...
- daughter to my parents
- youngest sis to my elder siblings
- girlfriend to him
- co-worker to my colleagues
- confidante to my friends
- law and order abidding person to the society

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I feel like taking a day off and visit the beach but looking at the weather, it's hard to predict if it's gonna rain or shine...

Do you realise as we grow older, we have more problems to solve? MOre issues to deal with? More responsibilities on our shoulders? More burdens to carry?

Welcome to adulthood!

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On a lighter note, I just got myself a new mobile phone! Motorola V3x!

Sometimes when you get suck in by all those crappy love songs, you tend to forget about the reality of being in love...

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I have a friend who needs to spend a lot of time knowing the person who's wooing her before she can accept him as her boyfriend. Better still is for them to start off being normal platonic friends first.

I need to spend a lot of time konowing the person before accepting him/her as my friend/buddy. Maybe that's why I have so little friends.

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I have this sudden urge to chuck everything aside, run free and be away from EVERYTHING...
Easier said than done...

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How come I'm always the one who is doing all the work? Bear in mind that I will get tired of all these.

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Random Post

I went to town with my guy last night. My initial plan was to collect my ring, which I sent for polishing, and dinner. We still had an hour to spare before heading back home so we just walked around Wisma for some window shopping. Window shopping? Hah! I ended up with a pair of quarts from GG5 and 2 pairs of shoes from Mondo. Total damage: less than 100 bucks. Woohoo! This is my first time getting 2 pair shoes under 100 bucks! My friends who have went shopping with me before would know that I don't usually splurge on shoes unless they are of good quality and they don't usually come cheap. BUT last night was different, I was amazed that the shoes I bought(they cost abt 30 bucks each) are so cheap and nice-looking. I think I have changed a lot......

2 years ago when I was still working with a bank, I used to spend a lot coz I had more spending power. I didn't even bat an eyelid when I bought my $200+ black suede heels in 2002 which I wore it to work even on rainy days. Whenever I have extra cash, I would reward myself with something "Branded", be it stuff from LV, Gucci, Burberrys, shoes from Ninewest, Tangs & Co or even the latest mobile phones in the market.

In 2004, I quit my then-job and became a civil servant. Things changed....
With a pay cut and less spending cash, my lifestyle totally changed. Yes, I might be still carrying my Guccis, LVs but the difference is those are the bags I got before 2004. I no longer buy stuff just for the sake of rewarding myself, I only buy the essentials, the most basic stuff I need. I spend 1 month thinking and considering if I should get the $40 black cardigan I saw at U2! I'm still using the same mobile phone I got it 2 years ago. That's me for now, I can't simply get everything that caught my eyes, I have to go thru this long evaluating process, "To buy or not to buy". One thing never change and that's my taste for shoes. My shoes still cost a bomb but I limit myself to only 1 or 2 pair of expensive shoes in a year. So that explains why I was so amazed by my 30-bucks shoes I got from Mondo, cheap and nice! I'm so proud of myself.... Well, just for last night.. Hehhehehehe

Love Language?

The Five Love LanguagesMy primary love language is probably
Acts of Service
with a secondary love language being
Quality Time.

Complete set of results

Acts of Service:		8
Quality Time:		7
Receiving Gifts:		6
Words of Affirmation:		6
Physical Touch:		2

Information

Unhappiness in relationships, according to Dr. Gary Chapman, is often due to the fact that we speak different love languages. Sometimes we don't understand our partner's requirements, or even our own. We all have a "love tank" that needs to be filled in order for us to express love to others, but there are different means by which our tank can be filled, and there are different ways that we can express love to others.

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She did it again...

Sometimes I juz wonder, why is she so liddat huh? She is the worst aunty-colleague I ever seen in my life.

真的是人心险恶！道高一尺，魔高一丈。She wins!

Q-Life Crisis

I woke up this morning feeling exhuasted. Then I realised it's already 7.30am! I quickened my pace and dashed thru my usual morning routine of washing up, choosing my work attire for the day. I stood infront of the mirror in my makeup room and put on a bit of makeup(coz I meeting my guy in the evening for dinner). Face done, time to blow dry my hair. As I stood there looking at my reflection, I realised the look on my face seemed abit jaded. "Heck it, I'm running late for work - I have to get outta my house NOW."

Quarter Life Crisis...

J said this to me once, "If u really want something that desperately, then go and get it, do something about it! No point sitting down and keep whining to your friends/family about how miserable you are without it!"