Hmmm...

I was surfing the net when I chanced upon this particular inline skating website. Guess what I found? I saw pictures of my ex-bf. You see, he is in this inline skating team and this website is set up all for them.
As I was looking at the pictures, it dawned upon me that there are so much things that I don't know about him. I didn't know he participated in this event, that competition, that game and etc...
Hahhaha don't think I qualify to be his girlfriend.

We spent a year together trying to decipher each other then I decided to call it quits when I realised we were heading no where. Thinking back, I realised I didn't try hard enough to understand him, didn't try to put myself in his shoes, didn't try to merge into his life. Guess the feeling was mutual. I never once attended any of his games or competitions, I didn't try to talk to his friends neither did I hang out with them, I never joined them for any gatherings. It's always me and him or him and his friends, never me, him and his friends. Dun get me wrong, his friends are all ok. Guess I don't click with them, most importantly I just can't blend into their circle. Was it because of language? I'm more comfortable in mandarin bah and they are all like blabbering in English. Age? 3 yrs different, no much of a problem. Social life? Maybe leh, coz I dunno what to say to them. Despite all these barriers, he never did try to force me to hang out with his friends.

Our experiment in trying to fuse our lives together for that one year proved to be futile. No amount of chemicals used can provide any sparks. Equation: ME + HIM = zero reaction. To other people, this may seems like a excellent combination, their explanation is "Good mah, we don't change our own character and stuff to suit each other. We don't have to expect our partners to change a single thing."
To me, this ain't a good thing. My point is if we are still living as separate entities, we might as well dun get into a relationship and let our status as acquaintance.

He's still a nice guy(Hey I really mean it ok) afterall maybe just that we are not suitable for each other. I realised that only a year later.
I really appreciate every single thing he did for me, I appreciate all the time spent with me, I really do.