Everyday I will take the NEL to and fro from work and everyday I will get to see something new. Things that will make me think about me and my behaviour. I would think to myself and wonder do I behave in the same way as them? Am I that atrocious? Am I that selfish? Am I an ugly Singaporean? I'm not sure. For those who read my blog, pls comment on my behaviour, it would help in identifying my flaws.
Most of the time, I would compare myself with the rest and there will be this ego thingy that makes me feel that I'm not an ugly, selfish, thoughtless Singaporean, in fact I'm better off than them. Am I really that good? I doubt so...
I still remember one incident which happened on my way home(taking the NEL). There were these 2 young kids and their mum on the train. They were very noisy and irritating coz they were running around creating havoc. Their mum juz screamed at them to stop and everyone juz stared at them. They continued. Then one of them ran over to my side and stomped on my shoes. No harm was done to my shoes but I felt kinda angry. They finally got off the train at the same station as me. As we exited the station, I heard their mum's screams again.
I told my mum this incident during dinner that nite and she had a good laugh after that. I thought to myself, would I behave in that way as that auntie when I'm married with kids? Would i allow my kids to do what that 2 boys were doing? You know what's my answer? Of course not lar, I'm better off than her mah, I would not create a scene and attract all those unwanted attention.
Really? I doubt so again. I'm not that perfect as what I thought I am. I can't see my flaws. Maybe this is embedded in everyone, being egoistic. Feeling superior than others. I'm not sure if you readers agree with me but for one thing I'm sure of is, yes I'm a ugly Singaporean when I behave/act or feel more superior than the others.
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